In 2022 two worthwhile journeys took place, at the start of the year and towards the end. 2023 sought to offer the third installment, in the middle of the year. Whilst 2022 was about discovery, 2023 was about the journey. In July I joined a group of amazing women on the Island of St. Miguel in the Azores, for the awakening of the guardians.

For a week, together with an international group, we completed a task, to unite the masculine and feminine energy of the island.

This was a retreats that my friend Ana organized, a very talented woman from Portugal, whom I met in Egypt. We both took part in the trip along the Nile and then near Cerro Uritorco in Argentina.

This time the call came to work with the energies in the Azores.

This unique opportunity took me to a magical land, where the guardians were not just the humans on the journey, but also the rocks held fast their watch over the ocean and the rivers.

With each task a message came through for each of us….

These messages were there to guide our own energies and wisdom to a new path of discovery, and with each card the self assurance came that we were on task and on the right track.

We travelled from the furthest point on the island to the Lighthouse in Arnel

to the other side of the island to the Mouth of the devil, Parque Estacionamento Ferraria.

The emotions, feelings, impressions are hard to describe, as I continue to make sense of what the experience means. What is clear that the internal systems received a new upgrade through this 3rd introspective trip.

The biggest take away for me is that I have to be open to the possibility that I can read energy, that I can tap into that field of protons and electrons and that I should not fear the power. I can connect with the seen and unseen, animate inanimate, embodied or disembodied. I am a healer in spirit and in body, and therefore I have to recognize my own power that I bring into this human world.

The wisdom of the land is so abundant though, as a populated island, is relatively new, compared to other parts of the world. On this lush rock, where humans have not left a long enough imprint, nature has certainly had many stories to tell.

We had the interesting experience of staying in a 15h century Franciscan Monastery. I say interesting experience because the guardians of the building (in spirit form) made sure we knew they were still in charge. The first time I stepped foot inside, a really heavy energy was present in the halls. This energy was even more prevalent in the areas we were due to have breakfast. We later found out that the dining area was used as an isolation room for the sick monks, but also where a healer could come in from the outside without needing to walk through the whole building. The place eventually made peace with our own energy, especially as we made sure to be respectful of the place and seeking permission to do our work.

As I mentioned at the start, if a 15th century haunted monastery was not enough, the island indeed had a variety of guardians in stone, trees, landscape windows and clouds. We saw faces, holly cows, and a variety of dragons. The land wanted to let us know that we were not alone. I guess, as humans we forget that we are indeed not the only sentient being on this planet, and we forget that just because we can not see into other dimensions, it does not mean that other beings can not join us in the journey. For me the signs were obvious, I was able to tap into the magic of this land and notice when the land was communicating with me.

I suppose, the imagination of the human is infinite and as a result we could see signs and prompts everywhere. When you are willing to see a different world then that which you are told through the news outlets, a more magical experience unfolds.

When I stepped foot on the island I did not know what to expect. I started my journey doing an 8hour group trip with the every day Joes, exploring the sights from start to finish, from the low of the ocean to the highs of the volcanoes. I asked for permission from all the elements: water (through the rain), air (coastal wind), Earth (we ate food cooked in the ground, and drank mineral water filtered by the Earth), fire ( corn cooked in the boiling water of the geyser)

Then I joined this exceptional group of humans, and the rest is now history as they say.

And when it came to say good-bye to the Island, my 8 hour journey from the start became the reverse journey. Saying our good bye to the element water at the furthest point North-the Lighthouse. We then said good bye to the element fire by trying to reach a very popular volcano – but had to turn around because everyone had the same idea. We chose to say good bye to the element air and earth, last in the southern part of the Island.

From the moment we are born, we are told that as human beings our job is to conform and to keep to the rules, or else…depending if you grow up in a faith or not there is always a boogeyman who will get you if you do not follow the status quo. And from that moment on we forget how to dream, how to see the world beyond the vail, we loose our natural gifts and talents.

This trip was not just about the sights and about joining a task someone was given by their guides, but it was also a trip of discovering each and every one of our strength. We had group members who were sharing their knowledge about human design, and how that gives us a description of our innate make-up. We had a regenerative detox specialist. We had a vegan/vegetarian baker, who made some exceptional vegan sweet treats. We had someone who was training as a holistic massage therapist – who daily re-aligned spins, depressed muscles and generally made sure our body was doing well. And so that we are connected from Earth to heaven and heaven on Earth – we had a flight attendant also, to help us navigate the low lows and high highs.

The beauty of such groups is that we all have talents that perhaps we keep to ourselves because the mainstream may find it to intimidating or difficult to reconcile. The magical thing is that we all came together and shared our skills in this human world, so that in the continuum of the universe, those talents get recognized and enhanced.

And whilst the trip has come to an end, the network remains alive and thriving. All these connections transcend time and space, we are all one.

I leave you with the message, that turned up a few times when we drew tarot cards during the trip

I am sitting here, editing what would be a future book, whilst my father is listening to the news on TV.

As soon as the broadcaster starts the program, the first story is about a woman who got attacked.

The news bulleting continues with yet another story where someone may have been stabbed, or hurt in a car accident, or robbed, or any other kind of ill fated misshaps.

My elderly father watches the show captivated by each tragic story. He sits there watching this horror, as if he was watching a building from outside the fence, detached, and observer to the shattered lives of others.

Have you ever truely watched the news lately?

One horrid story after another.

One tragedy after another, broadcasted to the masses, and no matter which channel you switch to, the same story is screamin back at you.

How can the human race change their way of being, if this is the daily “update” we get.

Have you stopped watching the news?

Have you actually decided to tune out the horror?

Yes, there are some stories we can not escape from, because they are indeed stories that deserve our attention, but why must we only focus on these negative stories? Why must we expose our eyes and ears day in day out to images that promote nothing positive?

We are being force fed a story line that is not commensurate to our magnificence.

What stories do you follow? How would you tell your story? What genre is your story? Is it a tragedy? A comedy? A comedy of errors? A rom com? Who are your protagonisist? Who is your villain? Who is the hero? Who are your hype people? Who writes your story line?

It is high time we engaged in conversation again. I suppose it has been a few weeks since I last engaged you in a discussion with your inner world.

The title of today’s engagement is consequence, but we can also maybe use the word effect or aftermath or fall out or repercussion. Depending on which synonym one uses is how further in the negative we think.

Th image that drives the discussion for today is from Dover Castle. Deep in the bowels of the castle there is a very small chapel where some time ago the visitor to the castle could spend time contemplating thought and connect with the divinity within or as they used to see it the Divinity in Heaven. The lights were pouring through the stained glass window, creating a mesmerizing pattern on the floor, an aftereffect of the Sun streaming through painted glass.

I suppose I chose this image both because of the colorful nature of it, but also because it clearly illustrates the title. This topic of consequence has show up in my world since Friday, when I met with a client who is having a really bad time in the world and is in major conflict with family members. In that session it was interesting how their own actions were just a reaction to other people’s automatic responses, and interestingly blames my client for all wrong doing. It was interesting to observe how they could not see their own role in the conflict and they were playing the blame game.

I see this type of conflict so much where human beings can not see how their own actions impact the collective. And perhaps we have touched on this subject last year but with the passing of time it becomes more and more apparent how some people just “do” and do not think of the aftermath. They appear to be on autopilot, as if someone else is at the helm and the human bares no responsibility.

If we consider the light from the image a “non sentient element” (though this is an inaccurate perspective) then is no wonder that it just IS, shines through something and then becomes something else, with not much thought to it. But human beings are apparently sentient, so then how can we as a species be so detached and disconnected from it all? Well, I do have my own insight and many psychologists do as well, but I suppose it goes back to the way of life we have been living these past two and a half thousand years. We used to be very connected to the world around us, we were a very physical species, observing the world and work in harmony with it. With modernization and especially industrialization, when the human stopped doing things physically and became more and more a “theoretical scholar”, that innate connection between action and outcome appears to be lost more and more. When we enter the realm of the virtual, it appears that sense of ownership or impact is lost altogether. It is fascinating to observe how things snowball in the virtual world in an absolutely epic way, when in contrast in the physical world it would be much slower. And as I am writing this, it occurred to me that perhaps this is how it happens in the higher reals, things take place at such high speed that from a human perspective it would be like being in the virtual. And I suppose it would be a virtual experience, for in the 4th density it appears we are none corporal?! I would not know, I am a human for the time being. But something tells me that it would feel like being online streaming everything and being nothing and yet experiencing everything with intensity. But I digress….or do I?!

In your world, how much do you contemplate on the outcomes of your action? How many times do you stop and think of your impact? Or is it only in the aftermath of it all do you think of the consequence?

Sure thing you all heard of the word “manifesting”, right?! Well, I hope you did. But I actually wonder if you ever considered that you are a master manifester?

I have to admit I am a skeptic in most things and one of the skepticism, or perhaps one of the beliefs I hold is that you have to work hard for what you have, it does not come to you instantly. Well, in my culture we have a saying (word for word translation) “waiting for a roasted chicken to fly in your mouth”, means waiting for something to magically happen, meaning you are not really trying. The other thing I kept hearing growing up, and I still hear, is that you do have to earn your living, you can not just hope that something shows up in your world, that hard work is the only way to get what you want.

My parents grew up during a very harsh time in history, then more hardship came their way, and had to always produce things through the sweat of their brows, therefore to them hard work is the only way something will “manifest”. And I guess this is a very old way of thinking because, today, wherever you turn, you hear people say, think it and it will manifest, “if you really want it, and you are the vibration of, it will show up in your world.”

Which one do you believe it’s true? You have to work hard for things, using physical force? Or do you believe that you can think it, and it will show up in your world?

Why am I bringing up this theme? Well, in March of this year, I visited Stonehenge, as you can see in the picture, and I thought to myself, “wouldn’t it be amazing to be able to visit the stone and be inside the circle?!” and I looked on the website and saw the cost (which I can afford) but it is a bit tricky because of timings and travel, etc. So, I dropped my wish half way. I did the research, I put the wish out into the ether ….and….dropped the intention. Like most of us do. I just asked for something, and then dropped it believing it is impossible. Fast forward to today, and ….. the week-end of the 16th July, I visited the stone circle. Not only did I visit the circle, I had the chance to meditate and connect with the stones, walk among them, and had the privilege of being a beautiful sunny day, with the Moon high in the sky, and be with a group of incredible humans. We did a cocoa ceremony on the site, walked through the dolomite and sat in the inner circle. It is only after the fact, that I realized that I have put this in motion months ago. i completely forgot I have set the intention of wanting visit the site perhaps in the summer.

Sometimes we set ourselves an intention, or we have a belief, or we pick up someone else’s belief, and we limit our own possibilities. Due to our upbringing, more often then not, we create a construct in our head that limits who we can/are/want to be. We create lack because we do not think we are worthy, we forget that we manifest things. We forget that we are manifesting machines. We think it, it happens, we believe it, it happens even more.

So why do you not create more of what you want? Why do you not tune into what you prefer? What believe do you hold that manifests that which you do not prefer? What are the limits you set yourself?

What I did realize that week-end is that, I am an infinite being condensed to a human body, that is too limited in it’s ability to dream big enough. I realized that as the infinite being that I am this human body is too slow in what it can co-create, and therefore I have to give grace to time, so that more of what I want can manifest. I need to allow my infinite self to expand and allow the co-creation.

What do you think you can co-create, if you drop all limiting beliefs?

Today’s entry is not really so much about self development as it is me sharing a funny story from the day job. The topic in itself was not a funny one, but ended tickling my funny bone because of the drawings that came out of the session.

I worked with two clients who needed to understand some things about their nervous system and how their reactions to the world may well be on auto pilot rather than as a result of rational thought.

The person on the right is on anti depressants and we were talking about the fact that their mood initially improved but now their mood is back to where it was, so our conversation was about how the medication works, but also how the nervous system works in simple terms. By the end of the conversation I noticed that a creature emerged that smiled, the client wanted to feel happier, therefore the final note was how if they change their perspective and get into therapy (I am not a psychologist or psychiatrist) perhaps the medication and therapy combined may help them feel happier. I only noticed the creature when the session was over, but it was smiling back at the client.

The creature on the left came out of a conversation with the client, where they wanted to improve their relationship with food. So our conversation created a character with a monocle so that the client can see better where the blockages are.

Two session, two individuals, same topic, different outcome.

There are times when we do not set out to be artists, and perhaps the topic may be tough to discuss, but there is no reason why it can not create art and create clarity for the other.

When did you have unexpected outcomes of a situation? Did that unexpected outcome make your day? Were you able to see the beauty in what you have created? Were you able to see the funny side of a potentially less than agreeable situation?

It has been a while since I did a “picture with a meaning” entry. Having seen how many people continue to read these entries, time I picked them up again. It may lead to us repeating ourselves a bit, but hey, what’s life if not an endless loop of doing – learning – repeating?!

So, last entry was in January and now we are about to enter summer, so it is only right to consider starting from the darkness and working our way up to the light.

When you first look at the picture on your phone, this image looks like a black endless void devoid of life, devoid f anything but darkness, and yet if you look closely, if you truly pay attention you can see how small dots of light emerge. And as the dots emerge, a pattern also emerges, and that pattern, if you know astronomy, form meaning. Of course for that meaning to come to light you have to have some knowledge of what it is you are looking at, you have to be able to discern that one dot is in one place, the other in a different configuration, and together they form a constellation, and whether they are a planet or a star or just some random satellite.

In life, we often find ourselves in the void, we get to a place of darkness, a space that we think no living thing can exist. We get to that poin,t and we think “all is pointless and devoid of meaning”. Some of us can discern a bit of light, and we follow it, and we create meaning, and we hang on, and we climb some more, and eventually we surface to a new understanding. For some people the darkness is a scary place, for they have gotten lost there in the past, they fear that the darkness will swallow them whole, with no way out.

In Abydos, Egypt, we were asked this very thing, to become nothing, to become no one, to become no where. Being able to just float in the void was refreshing to me, to some of my group members was a living hell.

Becoming no body, no one, no where, means to me being at zero point, means a refresh, means closing a chapter, recapitulating all, finding the grain of sand and beginning again.

How do you find meaning in the void? How do you become something again from nothing? How do you recognize what needs to be seen and therefore done to continue?